So every morning, I pray for my family- my wonderful husband and the 6 beautiful children we have been blessed with. I always refer to them as “the best dream (I never had) come true!” Because 20 years ago, if you told me I would have 6 children, I would have told you you were crazy. Even if you told me 15 years ago. Ten? …
But isn’t that where we always see God’s hand? I remember when my husband first asked me out. It was through an email exchange we were having. When I read it, I immediately went to a dear friend of mine, wondering what to do. “I am not looking for a relationship. I like being single and alone. I’ve dated enough!” Her response was simple, “Well you can always use a friend and I think he would be a good one.” Fair enough. So I went on the date. Who knew that 15 years later we would be here, with 6 children?! Well, God did. I always say that God hand-picked my husband for me, because quite frankly, I would not have been smart enough to choose him! But God knew that he would be the perfect match for me!
And these six children? Well, if I had listened to my doctor at the time, I would not have had any children. I remember going to him and telling him we wanted to start a family. And I remember him telling me I shouldn’t have children. “I can’t have children?!” He explained that no, I can have children, but shouldn’t. He explained that having watched me for 7 years, even though I was doing great, he could see the decline and understood enough about MS to know it would be hard. I remember his words, “You’ll never be the kind of Mom you want to be.” Those words have often haunted me, because he was right. But I wonder who ever is the Mom they want to be, all the time? That day, I went home, crying. My husband kept his ever-faithful, calm attitude, “Sweetie, we just have to give it to God. We just have to pray about it.” Well a month later, I was pregnant, and we believed God answered our prayer for guidance and clarity-yes, we should have children. And when I told my doctor, he smiled and said, “I would never argue with the Big Man Upstairs.”
I often think about how I would have easily followed my doctor’s advice and closed the door to having children. I laugh because, as the doctor “predicted” my health journey, I would still be here, struggling to walk and keep up with daily things. The difference is I would not have the beautiful inspiration from these 6 little miracles! They inspire me to keep going, to keep trying. I hate to think how empty my life would be without them! And I thank God for my amazing husband who had the strong faith to just trust. See how God hand-picked him for me? And life probably shouldn’t be the way I thought it would be. I would have missed out on so much!